Date:	2004-08-22 20:27
Subject:	dude, i suck at this
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Songs 4 worship, "i will call upon the Lord"

I randomly remembered i had one of these things and realized it's been forever since i last updated... woops.

Anyways: an update:

I am an official Kindergarten teacher in MA. I am teaching in a little town just west of Natick at a Christian school. I start tomorrow (orientation) and I am both nervous and excited. My classroom is fully decorated... However, i have a ton of organizing and such things to do before next Tuesday.

I am in the process of trying to find a place to live. My lease runs up at the end of August and i need to be outta here... However, i don't know what to do or where to move. Lots of options in the mist but none that seem like a good fit.

We'll see.

Life in Boston is wonderful. I love my friends, my church, my small group and my gym ;)

i can't really think of all that much to say... but, i'll try to keep this updated more frequently. (*try* is the key word here)

Date:	2004-03-22 21:06
Subject:	"smitten"
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Mary Mary "shackels"

SO.

This weekend was such a blast... Actually, the weekend started on Thursday with the beginning of my church's "under construction" retreat. SOO MUCH FUN. From worship, to talks, to helping out with the middle school group it was a blast. Not only did i get to lead a few discussions and games, play some waaaaaay fun games, get to know the youth... I MADE FRIENDS! I'm so pumped. I had really been missing a group of friends like i had in college, and now, i'm starting to finally feel at home and surrounded by love here. Now, i have all of my friends in the area who i knew prior to moving, AND new ones! I'm so happy.

On Sunday, after a pancake breakfast cooked by the middle school group, a *new* friend and I went to an African DANCE class! It was SOOO much fun!! So much for the "i hate to dance stigma" i loved it!! It was such a great time filled with laughs and sweat! (right, i didn't know the two went together like that either) :) Afterwords, i went out for burritos with 4 people and talked for hours. Such a great time: good food good convo. I feel so blessed.

More so, I am finally beginning to feel at home in my church, (and the pastor said hi to me! (wwcutie: break through!) I have some great people to talk to and am joining a small group on Thursday. I can't wait. Not mention Yoked on Friday and then an all night coffee house on Saturday. :)

(one more application out this weekend!)

aedimti- coffee/thai this week?

wwcutie, this is for you (since i know how much you love links like this)

http://starterupsteve.servepics.com/swf/kozoFlash.html

Date:	2004-03-14 20:06
Subject:	end of week update
Security:	Public
Mood:	optimistic
Music:	Relient K, Forward Motion

So, as my dad would say, "you just don't know what you want to do!!" and it's true. Well, more specifically, i don't know where i want to be... I have now sent out resumes in Florida, New Hampshire, Massachusetts, Connecticut, and New York. I hope someone responds. I don't know where I want to be, but i'm optimistic!!

So, thank goodness last week is over with. From Father's Night to everything else, it was quite hectic.. in a good way; however, i am eager to get back into my typical swing of things... Although, now that i think about it, this week won't be so typical seeing as i have a church retreat from Thursday- Saturday and i'm sure i won't get my average amount of sleep in. Oh well, i'm looking forward to helping with the middle school kids. It's been a blast getting to know them. This past Sunday we played a game very similar to capture the flag outside and it was such a blast. It feels so good to be plugged in and doing something that i love.

If i had it my way, everyone would take a part off of their day and go outside and play. (and then have some cookies and milk)

On that note, it's off I go. More later on this week. Lets hope that work is alright this week. It has been quite a struggle lately...

I went to go see Passion of the Christ the other day. At first all i could do was sit in my seat and stare at the credits. After 2 hours of on and off sobbing, i was exhausted and overwhelmed. I, of course, knew the story of what i was about to see.. but i was unprepared to be effected the way I was. I couldn't believe that Jesus would go through all of that suffering (That didn't even touch what probably happened) for me. I thought Mel Gibson took a very bold move making the movie and I'm glad he did.

I was told that Mel Gibson wanted to make this movie because it is what changed his life. He was deep in sin and depressed... so, he looked to the face of the crucified, beaten and bloody Christ and cast his sin and misery onto him and nailed up that misery along with Christ who, at the same time, set him free. Such a powerful statement... and act of faith. Mel, let go of all that was putting him down and instead of looking down at all his misery, he turned to his Lord and Savior. Mel then, gave everyone else the same gift to do that through creating the movie. He gave others the opportunity to really see what happened and to nail their sins up on that cross.

While people have different reactions to the movie, one thing is for certain, it is effecting many lives and praise God for that.

For more information about the movie: http://www.afterthepassion.com/

Date:	2004-03-07 19:21
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Girls of Grace, Every move I make

This week has been quite the week! From crazy application filling out to Father's Night at school, i haven't had much time to think!! However, things are going well and this nice weather sure has put me in a great mood! I hope it stays nice!

Today, while I was at the Laundramat this guy from BC stops me and starts talking to me about Phish. It was so ... nice! He was very good looking (very much my type!!) I hope to run into him again... It's funnt because while we were talking all i could think about was that scene from 40 days and 40 nights and hoping that it would come true!! (I can dream!)

Asides from that, not much is too new.

On deck for this week:
send out applications
go to the gym!
Father's Night for the upstairs class Thursday Night
Hair appointment in CT on Saturday
Helping out with the youth group on Sunday

Another busy week...

Lets hope i hear back from some of these schools!

Date:	2004-02-26 20:55
Subject:	"you've got to shine"
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Burlap to Cashmere, Treasures in Heaven

SO... 6 applications out at six Christian Schools in FLORIDA. I hope to get hired... Pray for me :)

Today work was alright, it's nice that the weather is finally getting better. The kids can actually play outside and not have a million extra layers on top of them. (Which means, no more lost mittens, hats, scarves, boots, socks, etc etc) Now that i say this, you know we will get bombed with snow at least once more. Oh well... at least for right now it is nice. (Nice enough to take a walk at lunch time and get a sandwich!)

On another note, i have another date on Saturday with the German. WOO HA. Fine Arts Museum here we come. Then a showing of the Vagina Monologues with B and B. Also on deck for the weekend is to go see, "Passion of the Christ." I'm very interested to see how it is...

Today i had an awesome conversation with an old friend whom i miss greatly. It was nice to talk to him again. All in all, a good day and a good set of weekend plans.

i sent out some applications to teach in FL for next year. It would be pretty sweet to live near the beach and my aunt and uncle. Who knows maybe i'll be in FL next year.

All's up in the air.

Date:	2004-02-22 15:40
Subject:	The Weekend
Security:	Public
Mood:	indifferent
Music:	American Wedding

Yesterday my whole family came up to spend the day in Boston. We went to Newbury St. and then ate at Marche Movenpick. If you are ever in Boston, you have! to eat there. SOOOO GOOD!

After walking around we came back to my place and just hung out until it was time to go see Brad's play.

I was so proud of Brad tonight. His play went amazing-- everyone laughed and gave him a huge applause. :) WAY TO GO!

On Sunday I went to IHOP then to see EuroTrip. (not bad... not great)

all in all, a good weekend. However, unfortunately tomorrow i have to go back to work.

Date:	2004-02-20 16:42
Subject:	creepy
Security:	Public
Mood:	uncomfortable

So, i was walking around Boston today. Basically, just window shopping and taking in the scene when this old lady stops me and hands me a red carnation.

She says, "I'd like to give this to you."

Being the polite person I am, i accept the carnation and say, "Thank you."

She continues with, "Do you have any money that you can spare me for some food?"

Now after having accepted the flower from the woman I say, "yes" without knowing what i have in my wallet. Unfortunately, as i peek in i see that suffice to say, all i have is a twenty and a ten. So, I give the lady the ten....

She continues to say that "she senses a good thing from me" then asks "would you like a reading of yourself?"

I say no thanks.... and go into the store.

As i leave, another woman of the same ethnicity (Who looks very pale with eyes sunken in) attempts to hand me a yellow rose. I just shaeke my head no and walk around the corner. (getting myself lost for a good 5 minutes.)

Date:	2004-02-19 23:27
Subject:	European date
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy

went grrrrrrreat. (quite possibly the best one i've ever been on)

good food, great conversation (4+ hours!!) and another date in the making.

WOOO HA.

Date:	2004-02-19 09:10
Subject:	Life Decisions
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	channel 7 morning news

My roomate is moving out. She decided that she wants to move in with her friends who have an apartment closer to her job. She says that "because i am not on the lease, i can be a bitch and leave." First of all, she was suppossed to go sign the lease. Second, who does that? Who leaves half way through the year and screws there other roomates. I can't afford her share of the rent.

So, obviously, i'm freaking out. (want to move to Boston??)

However, i wrote a good friend of mine and she was basically like, listen Kristen. The universe is trying to tell you something. You need to listen. Stop. Think. Meditate. Listen to what YOU need and want.

I have been trying to do this... Really get a feel for where i am and what i want to do with my life. I haven't come up with much... But these are the steps I have taken thus far....

I applied to be an AuPair over in England, Ireland and Australia for next year... We'll see if anything comes up.

I also applied back at a Montessori school in CT.

I still have an application in at Brandeis although the question(s) is(are)
1. Do i want to stay in Boston?
2. Do i want a degree in anthro?
3. Will i be happy if i stay another year in Boston?

I'm not quite sure what to do...


*still listening*

i died and cut my brother's hair tonight to make him look like a punk. (because he isn't already?!)

He plays his first gig tomorrow night~ good luck LIP44!!

Date:	2004-02-16 20:30
Subject:	my head...
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	O.A.R, City on Down

So, i had such a great time being home this weekend. I hung out with a friend of mine who i can always just let everything hang out with. I've known her for 10 years now and she knows everything. As she says, "i watched you go through puberty and all that weird stuff and now we're still friends."

So, we were talking and when i finally let my head run loose i realized how unhappy i am right now. I do not feel meaningful at my job and i want to do so much more with my life. The only thing is that i keep changing my mind! ugh. It would help if i had the same ideas every day. But my head is sooo noisy that i just can't sort through it and really figure out what i want.

so, right. on to figuring out me. (god help us all) I like living in Boston... but at the same time i miss living in the suburbs at home. Although, i don't think that's where i want to be right now. I like going to the bar, hanging out with friends in the city, being surrounded by people... However, i miss the people who are so dear to me at home. I felt such an overwhelming feeling of love at home... something i haven't felt in such a long time... I miss it. I miss them.

what to do.... ?

Date:	2004-02-14 16:18
Subject:	Feelin' like a dumbass
Security:	Public
Mood:	embarrassed

So, i came home today and in my house were three people... one of them being my brother, another being a friend of his i had met many times. The other was tall, wearing a ski hat, a grey sweatshirt and big skater jeans. I walk in and say, "hey boys!"

suffice to say, the tall person was a girl.

i feel dumb. :( i hope i didn't hurt her feelings.

Date:	2004-02-12 20:46
Subject:	oh!
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited

I forgot. I have a date with a European!! :)
(that's all the info you get)

Date:	2004-02-12 20:36
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed
Music:	Simon and Garfunkel, the 59th st bridge song "feelin groovy"

I started my day with a 2 mile run today. It felt so good to wake up and excersize... It seemed to make the day go so much nicer...

Work was work. However, i hung around abit afterwards to chat with two coworkers over Starbucks coffee which was nice. It was nice to joke around with coworkers and relax!

After work, i had dinner with one of my co-workers and it was such a nice little bitch fest. We were discussing basically everything we hate about the school. It was so nice to hear that the things that are/were bothering me upset other people, too. Hopefully the large stickes stuck up people's asses will be removed. (perhaps vacation will dislodge a few of them-- one inparticular)

I still haven't heard anything back from Brandeis. I know that is has only been 10 days, but i want to know... now. I'm so impatient.

Your Life_______
[x] they call me: Kristen
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: June 27, 1981
[x] status: single
[x] occupation: teacher in Wellesley. Aspiring grad student...
[x] best friends: Kat, Meg, Cassie, Di, Kathryn, Bri, Steph, Danny, Wendy
_______Rewind_______
[x] most memorable memory: Australia, London, Going Out West
[x] worst?: frosh year of high school
[x] first word uttered: ?
[x] first best friend ever!?: Karla
_______Love?_______
[x] love is: much needed
[x] first love: good question
[x] love or lust?: love
[x] best love song: depends on the person
[x] when love hurts, you: grab a movie, a beer and a friend
[x] true or false: all you need is love: false
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: no... lust yes.
_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turn ons: eyes, stomach, arms
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: yes
[x] what kinda hair style?: long or wicked short
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: love me
[x] where do you go to meet new people? i'm shy. ;)
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: no.
_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: dog
short or long hair: long
[x] sunshine or rain: sunshine
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] hugs or kisses: hug
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] summer or winter: summer
[x] written letters or e-mails: either.
[x] playstation or nintendo: neither
[x] car or motorcycle: CRV
[x] house party or club: house party
[x] sing or dance: sing
[x] freak or slow dance: slow
_______Lately_______
[x] how are you today? cranky
[x] what pants are you wearing right now? red cotton pj bottoms
[x] What shirt are you wearing right now? sweatshirt
[x] what does your hair look like at the moment? up
[x] how is the weather right now? 36*
[x] last person you talked to on the phone? Andrias
[x] last dream you can remember? ?
[x] who are you talking to right now? no one
[x] what time is it? 10:11
_______More About YOU!_______
[x] what are the last four digits of your phone number? 9797
[x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? blustery day
[x] have you ever almost died? probably
[x] do u like the person that sent u this? yup
[x] what's the next CD you are going to buy? Guster, Keep it Together
[x] what's the best advice ever given to you? "it doesn't matter what other people think"
[x] have u ever won any special award? yep.
[x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? lol, too many to choose
[x] how many kids do you want to have? three or four
[x] shampoo? mint thyme herbal shampoo
[x] what are you most scared of?
,[x] how many TV's do you have in your house? 2
[x] do you have your own TV? yes
[x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? yes, yes, yes
[x] who do you dream about? it varies
[x] who do you tell your dreams to? depends
[x] who's the loudest friend you have? beth
[x] who's the quietest friend? jess
[x] Is cheerleading a sport? no comment
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? licking takes too long

Date:	2004-02-10 21:33
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	Bohemian Rhapsody, Queen

Isn't it funny how songs and scents can make memories suddenly pop into your head?
More so, the emotions that coincide with the memories overtake any emotion that you might have been feeling. I was consummed by a rush of lonliness after hearing a few songs today. I can't wait for break. (friday!!) I miss being home, i miss my friends and i miss having my life planned out for me. I have no clue what i want to do with my life. I keep changing ideas. This whole teaching job is kinda sucking the life out of me... but, it pays the bills and it's not tooo bad. Just kinda sucky.

Date:	2004-02-10 21:31
Subject:	Careful
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy
Music:	Careful, guster

You walked out when I ask you to stay
As usual you'll get your way
You close the door
And stumble down to the street
Where you wring your hands
And you drag your feet there
Where the words can't find you
To crawl inside you

I'm ringing all the warning bells
Careful or you'll hurt yourself
Others lie lie lie
They adore you
I'll be the one to tell
You're careful or you'll hurt yourself
Gonna try try try
'Til the morning comes

But you can't hide
Standing under these stars
I know everything
I know where you are
You're in your head
You're all turned around with it
And the shining diamond lights'd
Bring you back again
Back where I can't find you
To crawl inside you

I'm ringing all the warning bells
Careful or you'll hurt yourself
Others lie lie lie
They adore you
I'll be the one to tell
You're careful or you'll hurt yourself
Gonna try try try
'Til the morning

All you want to see
Is make believe
It's nothing
Way down underneath
I'm ringing all the warning bells
Careful you don't hurt yourself
Others lie lie lie
They adore you
I'll be the one to tell
You're careful or you'll hurt yourself
Gonna try try try
'Til the morning comes

-guster